Good morning everyone, it’s Friday!!
Fear. The only emotion that can take over the intellect of humans and lead us into destruction.
Fear. The powerful motivator that serves humanity by helping us escape and avoid danger.
Fear. My oldest and best friend.
As children, we who have survived childhood trauma have known more fear than we should have ever have known. However, we did experience fear, and now we live with the effects of that terror.
However, fear may be what is holding us back from realizing our dreams and bogging us down in an abyss of conflicting emotions.
I know this is a fact for me. I crave, want and need someone in my life to love and cherish and to be loved and cherished, yet I shrink away whenever someone looks my way. I am petrified of being abandoned, terrified of what they may want from me.
My fear holds me back.
The only way that I can conquer my fear of intimacy is to face it head on, just as I have all the other issues from my terror-filled childhood.
I have begun to join groups that have similar interests to mine and to open up to those in these groups that I find I can learn to trust.
Lack of trust equals fear and although I understand why I couldn’t trust as a kid, it’s time to take back that power and allow myself to be loved.
How about you?