“We can’t always choose the music life plays for us, but we can choose how we dance to it.” ~ Author Unknown
I’ve been very sick lately with seasonal affective disorder (SAD). I know, it commonly hurts people in the fall, but there a few of us who have it in both spring and fall. Lucky me, I’m one of them.
I have loved the above gif for a long time. I guess it’s because she reminds me of how I feel inside. You see, there was a song called “Angie Baby” by Helen Reddy back when I was a teenager.
(Yep, I’m that old. Sigh.)
The song talks about a young girl who has no friends and no boyfriend prospects. She is so lonely she invents a world her own in her mind. In the end, she goes insane, and makes a boy who decides to rape her “disappear.”
Sorry to say, I related heavily to that song. I used to dance alone in my bedroom to it, spinning and spinning.
I was very ill and no one cared. That sums up what was going on then. I’m surprised I grew up as sane as I did.
However, what I wanted to say is that I dance in my mind all the time to my own beat. I don’t fit neatly into any category or type of person.
When I see this gif I see the look on her face and the moves she is making and understand that she is telling the world to go screw themselves.
That’s how I’m feeling today and have been for the past month.
I have my days you know. I don’t always feel cheery or helpful. I am a human being first. Right now I’m feeling horrible. I see my Psychiatrist on Friday and I’m very hopeful he can help me somehow.
Like the quote says, I don’t have a choice in the music life has in the past has played or is in the present playing for me. However, I can choose how I dance to it.
I’m doing a slow waltz right now dancing around the negative feelings and thoughts I have in my head. Tomorrow, who knows, I may graduate to a jig.
My friends, just keep dancing. Just keep moving on.