I’ve noticed that there hasn’t been much response to my piece about eating disorders. To be honest, EDs are a very tough subject to think about, let alone read. However, I’ve never been one for hiding my head in the sand so I decided (with the help of Athena Moberg from the CPTSD Foundation) to tackle it.
I have an eating disorder myself. I hesitate to say I binge eat, but I certainly put too much food into my body. I weight close to 300 pounds and have many of the signs of an eating disorder. I do not write those words lightly as it is a hard thing to admit in public. I would much rather eat alone and I hide what I eat from others. When I’m not overeating I’m starving myself out of guilt for being so large.
God knows, I already have many strikes against me. Being in a wheelchair and a survivor will cut years off my lifespan already.
Please, don’t be afraid to look at yourself and ask the important question, “Do I have an eating disorder?” I have asked myself that question and doing so gives me more fuel to fight.
I posted at the top of this post a picture of how I look because I’m coming out as a person who has an eating disorder. I refuse to hide my body or feel shame when I see myself in the mirror. It will take me some time, but I will beat this thing.
Eating disorders kill and that is my main focus, making sure the people who read my pieces are aware of what is going on so that they do not become a statistic.