My Loneliness Comes and Goes

I discussed yesterday how lonely I am inside, but this morning I feel totally fine. The dissociative identity disorder I have lived with all my life makes me fluid in that aspect and many others. I think you can understand this if you are a multiple, and if you aren't then you've probably seen it. [...]

I’m Not SuperHuman I Confess, I Have Needs

Sometimes, I get real on my website. I don't always feel up and optimistic, no one can. I'm sorry that I shock people with pieces like this but I am not an island unto myself nor am I some kind of superhero. Sometimes I feel so lonely I want to turn inside myself and never [...]

The Masks I Wear

When many people were children, wearing a mask on Halloween or to a masquerade party was fun. For an hour or two they could put on the face of someone else, giggle a lot about how they looked, and enjoy being someone else for a while. Then, after the party had ended, they would remove [...]

The Helping Profession? Don’t Make Me Laugh

I have a doctor’s appointment today with my primary caregiver whom I have only seen once in the past six months. It was not my choice to not see him, the clinic where he works keeps losing professionals, so I have been bounced about like a freaking basketball from nurse practitioner to another. I’ve been [...]

Trauma-Informed Care

Many of you, like me, have survived one or more traumatic events in childhood know how our lives have become changed in negative ways. By traumatic events I offer the following definition I found on the Healthline website: “A traumatic event is an incident that causes physical, emotional, spiritual, or psychological harm. The person experiencing the distressing event may feel threatened, [...]

Inflammation, Myelin Repair, and a Cure for Mental Illness

Those people who live with the effects of complex post-traumatic stress disorder sometimes believe that the symptoms they have are made up and all in their imaginations. Many feel they are weak and that is why they are “different” or “weird”. Worse, many believe they can never heal from the events that lead them to [...]

Do You Have Unrealistic Beliefs About Therapists and Psychotherapy?

In my experience, one of the greatest obstructions to healing is having unrealistic and unfair expectations of what a therapist does and what one can get from psychotherapy. These unreal beliefs lead to frustration, anger, and not following through with treatment. In this piece, we shall take a long and hard look at these beliefs, [...]

Brain Inflammation and Its Connection to Severe Mental Illness

In the last article, we began discussing how brain inflammation is indicated in the formation of severe mental illnesses. Today we are going to explore two major mental illnesses, major depression, and schizophrenia, and how brain inflammation has become implicated in their formation. What is Inflammation? Inflammation is one of the body’s defense responses to [...]

The Pale Blue Dot by Carl Sagan

I'm posting this today as a reminder to all who will hear of how interlinked we all are here on planet Earth. Despite what delusions we may hold, we are one world and one people living out our lives on one planet. Remember that.   https://youtu.be/kjtuVvfRhHs

The Tragedy of The Lack of Mental Health Care in Rural America

If you are depressed or suicidal in rural America, you are in deep trouble. There are only a few mental health providers in your area and those few are less qualified and may not be helpful to you at all. With suicide on the rise among farmers and people living in rural communities, something must [...]

Sexual Orientation and Dissociative Identity Disorder; It’ Complicated

One of the most recognizable symptoms of dissociative identity disorder (DID) is the presence of alternates or as many call them, “others”. The alters in a dissociated system may have different tastes in clothing, foods, and friends. However, there is one taste often avoided when speaking of the differences between alters, sexual orientation. How Does [...]

Living Life Well Despite Knowing You Will Die

No one lives forever. This is an unalterable fact that all adults understand. However, how many times a day do you sit and think about how your life will end? Once, twice, never? Personally, I have begun to realize how fragile my existence is and how I should enjoy life to the fullest now instead [...]

What is the Purpose of My Life?

Thank you for this opportunity to showcase what I feel most passionate about, and how these deep emotional ties impact my writing. I know I have published some hard stuff lately and thought perhaps it was time for you to know more about what motivates me. Yes, the previous piece that talked about my deepest [...]

The Reasons I Live

What is the motivation For me to take my next breath? What? Is it because I feel safe? Or that I feel free and have hope? No. So why? Can I start my life over? Can I choose better parents? No. So Why? Will I have a loving relationship? Kids, a career, self-esteem? No. So [...]

Inflammation and the Brain Changes Observed in Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

In our previous article, we examined how neuroimaging is giving new insights into changes in the brain caused by trauma. Yes, trauma harms the human brain but how does that work? What could our bodies be doing that causes the types of damage outlined in this article? Today, we shall investigate what is causing the [...]