Am I Real? Do I Fit Into the World? What Makes Me Stay Here?

Having dissociative identity disorder, sometimes I wake up in the morning asking myself some interesting yet devastating questions. The three self-exploring questions I’ve mentioned in the title are the biggest and hardest to answer. During National Suicide Awareness Month, I felt it appropriate to ask and attempt to answer these questions and more. Am I [...]

Discussing Another Six Symptoms of CPTSD

We began last week looking at the symptoms of complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). We learned together how life-altering the symptoms of this enigmatic disorder are to the everyday lives of those who live with them. Today we are going to survey more of the symptoms and how they can affect people’s lives. First, a [...]

A Closer Look at the symptoms of Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Most of us who live with the diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder also have a high probability of showing the symptoms of complex post-traumatic stress disorder. In fact, I would say the two diagnoses go hand in hand. That is NOT to say that everyone with CPTSD has DID, but it may be true the [...]

Healing from Dissociative Identity Disorder by Going Down the Road Less Taken

I wrote the following piece for people who either do not believe in or do not understand dissociative identity disorder. Please, feel free to share this information with your therapists, families, and friends. Shirley If any of our readers have seen the movies Sybil or Split, you may think you understand what dissociative identity disorder [...]

The Expectations of Therapists: A Client’s Point of View

There are many aspects to undergoing psychotherapy that most people do not understand, and there are many misconceptions as to what to expect from this unusual and incredibly special relationship. In this unfamiliar association between two strangers, a special bond is formed as a therapist attempts to help their client overcome emotional difficulties using their [...]

The Freedom Sculpture and I

On June 18, 2001, a bronze sculpture created by Zenos Frudakis was dedicated in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. The 7,000-pound work fills a twenty-foot length of 16th and Vine street and has given hope and inspiration to millions. The sculpture is titled "Freedom", but it is most commonly called “The Freedom Sculpture” as it shows four stages [...]

Memory, the Door to Yesterday

Remembering yesterday comes easily for most adults. They can recall events and details about where they were and whom they met with relative ease, even after several days have passed. It is not so with people like me who live with the amnesia that accompanies dissociative identity disorder. All my life I’ve been painfully aware [...]

Regaining Power from Triggers

Anyone who has ever had a flashback or a dissociative episode knows what triggers are and how they can affect lives. This article will examine triggers in-depth to help you understand their definition, what causes them, and how to overcome them. What are Triggers? Triggers are a normal part of being human, but not all [...]

The Disparities of Mental Health Care in Urban Areas of the United States

Receiving appropriate mental health care is crucial to healing. However, an enormous number of American citizens cannot and do not receive the care they need because there simply are no providers in their region to turn to in times of crisis. In this piece, we shall examine the statistics and costs both monetary and personal [...]

Emotions

I attended an online book club with others who live with DID last night and the discussion was on emotions. Yuck. Emotions are something we all have because we are human beings and complex creatures. I decided to put together a group of gifs that symbolize to me my different types of emotions. RAGE   [...]

The Many Physical Effects Leftover from Severe Childhood Abuse

I’ve discussed lately some of the emotional effects child abuse and neglect cause adult survivors, but what about our bodies? Now I’m going to answer the question how does childhood trauma impact us physically as adults? First, we’ll explore the long-term physical problems brought on by the harm perpetrated against our bodies, then I’m going [...]

Living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder

As if living with dissociative identity disorder weren’t enough, many survivors, including myself, also live in the hades of generalized or some other type of anxiety disorder. In this piece, I’m not just going to tell you about surviving despite generalized anxiety disorder, but also a little about how it is negatively affecting my life. [...]

Do You Have Unrealistic Beliefs About Therapists and Psychotherapy?

In my experience, one of the greatest obstructions to healing is having unrealistic and unfair expectations of what a therapist does and what one can get from psychotherapy. These unreal beliefs lead to frustration, anger, and not following through with treatment. In this piece, we shall take a long and hard look at these beliefs, [...]

Brain Inflammation and Its Connection to Severe Mental Illness

In the last article, we began discussing how brain inflammation is indicated in the formation of severe mental illnesses. Today we are going to explore two major mental illnesses, major depression, and schizophrenia, and how brain inflammation has become implicated in their formation. What is Inflammation? Inflammation is one of the body’s defense responses to [...]

The Tragedy of The Lack of Mental Health Care in Rural America

If you are depressed or suicidal in rural America, you are in deep trouble. There are only a few mental health providers in your area and those few are less qualified and may not be helpful to you at all. With suicide on the rise among farmers and people living in rural communities, something must [...]