Emotions

I attended an online book club with others who live with DID last night and the discussion was on emotions. Yuck. Emotions are something we all have because we are human beings and complex creatures. I decided to put together a group of gifs that symbolize to me my different types of emotions. RAGE   [...]

The Many Physical Effects Leftover from Severe Childhood Abuse

I’ve discussed lately some of the emotional effects child abuse and neglect cause adult survivors, but what about our bodies? Now I’m going to answer the question how does childhood trauma impact us physically as adults? First, we’ll explore the long-term physical problems brought on by the harm perpetrated against our bodies, then I’m going [...]

Living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder

As if living with dissociative identity disorder weren’t enough, many survivors, including myself, also live in the hades of generalized or some other type of anxiety disorder. In this piece, I’m not just going to tell you about surviving despite generalized anxiety disorder, but also a little about how it is negatively affecting my life. [...]

Recognizing the Important Qualities and Red Flags of a Therapist

There are diverse types of Therapists out there with many varying qualifications. However, what are the qualities that allow for mental health professionals to make and maintain a good therapeutic alliance with their clients? In this piece, we shall explore together the good traits of a therapist and some red flags that show that they [...]

The CPTSD Foundation

I have mentioned this foundation in other pieces, but I thought it important to mention them once more. The CPTSD Foundation was the brainchild of Athena Moberg, a wonderful person who has dedicated her life, money, and time to help survivors affected by Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. The foundation offers several programs that help survivors [...]

Hatred Can Only Be Conquered by Love

I’m not sure what to title this post as it isn’t directly about dissociative identity disorder, but I feel the need to weigh in on the drama/trauma I see happening in the United States today. This is not going to be a political piece, rather I’m going to address the effect all the hatred and [...]

My Loneliness Comes and Goes

I discussed yesterday how lonely I am inside, but this morning I feel totally fine. The dissociative identity disorder I have lived with all my life makes me fluid in that aspect and many others. I think you can understand this if you are a multiple, and if you aren't then you've probably seen it. [...]

I’m Not SuperHuman I Confess, I Have Needs

Sometimes, I get real on my website. I don't always feel up and optimistic, no one can. I'm sorry that I shock people with pieces like this but I am not an island unto myself nor am I some kind of superhero. Sometimes I feel so lonely I want to turn inside myself and never [...]

The Masks I Wear

When many people were children, wearing a mask on Halloween or to a masquerade party was fun. For an hour or two they could put on the face of someone else, giggle a lot about how they looked, and enjoy being someone else for a while. Then, after the party had ended, they would remove [...]

The Helping Profession? Don’t Make Me Laugh

I have a doctor’s appointment today with my primary caregiver whom I have only seen once in the past six months. It was not my choice to not see him, the clinic where he works keeps losing professionals, so I have been bounced about like a freaking basketball from nurse practitioner to another. I’ve been [...]

Trauma-Informed Care

Many of you, like me, have survived one or more traumatic events in childhood know how our lives have become changed in negative ways. By traumatic events I offer the following definition I found on the Healthline website: “A traumatic event is an incident that causes physical, emotional, spiritual, or psychological harm. The person experiencing the distressing event may feel threatened, [...]

Inflammation, Myelin Repair, and a Cure for Mental Illness

Those people who live with the effects of complex post-traumatic stress disorder sometimes believe that the symptoms they have are made up and all in their imaginations. Many feel they are weak and that is why they are “different” or “weird”. Worse, many believe they can never heal from the events that lead them to [...]

Do You Have Unrealistic Beliefs About Therapists and Psychotherapy?

In my experience, one of the greatest obstructions to healing is having unrealistic and unfair expectations of what a therapist does and what one can get from psychotherapy. These unreal beliefs lead to frustration, anger, and not following through with treatment. In this piece, we shall take a long and hard look at these beliefs, [...]

Brain Inflammation and Its Connection to Severe Mental Illness

In the last article, we began discussing how brain inflammation is indicated in the formation of severe mental illnesses. Today we are going to explore two major mental illnesses, major depression, and schizophrenia, and how brain inflammation has become implicated in their formation. What is Inflammation? Inflammation is one of the body’s defense responses to [...]

The Pale Blue Dot by Carl Sagan

I'm posting this today as a reminder to all who will hear of how interlinked we all are here on planet Earth. Despite what delusions we may hold, we are one world and one people living out our lives on one planet. Remember that.   https://youtu.be/kjtuVvfRhHs