Emotions

I attended an online book club with others who live with DID last night and the discussion was on emotions. Yuck. Emotions are something we all have because we are human beings and complex creatures. I decided to put together a group of gifs that symbolize to me my different types of emotions. RAGE   [...]

Living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder

As if living with dissociative identity disorder weren’t enough, many survivors, including myself, also live in the hades of generalized or some other type of anxiety disorder. In this piece, I’m not just going to tell you about surviving despite generalized anxiety disorder, but also a little about how it is negatively affecting my life. [...]

My Loneliness Comes and Goes

I discussed yesterday how lonely I am inside, but this morning I feel totally fine. The dissociative identity disorder I have lived with all my life makes me fluid in that aspect and many others. I think you can understand this if you are a multiple, and if you aren't then you've probably seen it. [...]

I’m Not SuperHuman I Confess, I Have Needs

Sometimes, I get real on my website. I don't always feel up and optimistic, no one can. I'm sorry that I shock people with pieces like this but I am not an island unto myself nor am I some kind of superhero. Sometimes I feel so lonely I want to turn inside myself and never [...]

The Masks I Wear

When many people were children, wearing a mask on Halloween or to a masquerade party was fun. For an hour or two they could put on the face of someone else, giggle a lot about how they looked, and enjoy being someone else for a while. Then, after the party had ended, they would remove [...]

Trauma-Informed Care

Many of you, like me, have survived one or more traumatic events in childhood know how our lives have become changed in negative ways. By traumatic events I offer the following definition I found on the Healthline website: “A traumatic event is an incident that causes physical, emotional, spiritual, or psychological harm. The person experiencing the distressing event may feel threatened, [...]

Inflammation, Myelin Repair, and a Cure for Mental Illness

Those people who live with the effects of complex post-traumatic stress disorder sometimes believe that the symptoms they have are made up and all in their imaginations. Many feel they are weak and that is why they are “different” or “weird”. Worse, many believe they can never heal from the events that lead them to [...]

Brain Inflammation and Its Connection to Severe Mental Illness

In the last article, we began discussing how brain inflammation is indicated in the formation of severe mental illnesses. Today we are going to explore two major mental illnesses, major depression, and schizophrenia, and how brain inflammation has become implicated in their formation. What is Inflammation? Inflammation is one of the body’s defense responses to [...]

Sexual Orientation and Dissociative Identity Disorder; It’ Complicated

One of the most recognizable symptoms of dissociative identity disorder (DID) is the presence of alternates or as many call them, “others”. The alters in a dissociated system may have different tastes in clothing, foods, and friends. However, there is one taste often avoided when speaking of the differences between alters, sexual orientation. How Does [...]

What is the Purpose of My Life?

Thank you for this opportunity to showcase what I feel most passionate about, and how these deep emotional ties impact my writing. I know I have published some hard stuff lately and thought perhaps it was time for you to know more about what motivates me. Yes, the previous piece that talked about my deepest [...]

INTRODUCING A NEW BOOK ON DID!

Being one who doesn’t sit still for long, I would like to introduce to you a new book that I have worked hard on for over a year. It’s called  The Comprehensive Resource on Dissociative Identity Disorder Textbook I have jam-packed this book with every topic about dissociative identity disorder I could think of including [...]

Grieving Over the Childhood That Never Was

Discovering you have a severe mental health problem, such as dissociative identity disorder (DID), causes a lot of chaos in a person’s life. You feel betrayed by your own mind and often afraid of the parts of your psyche that make you who you are. However, the fear and chaos experienced when receiving the diagnosis [...]

The Importance of Accepting Life on Life’s Terms

Life isn’t fair or easy for anyone, I’ve established that as my main theme in life today. However, I spent many decades trying to force life to move faster, slower, bend or unbend to match my idea of perfection. Then the truth hit me like the proverbial ton of bricks, I need to accept life [...]

The Difficult Road to Intimacy: Living with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Those of us living with dissociative identity disorder most certainly live under the thumb of complex post-traumatic disorder. This piece is about learning to have a relationship despite having a traumatic past. Living with complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) is very challenging. If affects every aspect of the lives those who suffer under its symptoms. [...]

The Outer Critic, Self-Parenting and the Thirteen Steps of Healing

This series of articles has focused on emotional flashbacks. We’ve discussed how they feel, what causes them, and the turmoil they bring into relationships and lives. In this article, we will cover ways to conquer the emotional roller coaster that accompanies complex post-traumatic stress disorder and emotional flashbacks. Self-Loathing Comes from Adults that Mattered When [...]